I want to say too many things to you forever
Zhao Zhipeng
One year has changed a lot, so much so that the comparison between the mentality when we set out and now is surprising and embarrassing. The emotions accumulated over the past year are also very heavy, so heavy that I don’t want to put pen to paper or recall them now. I love here, I have hated it, I have been grateful here, and I have complained about it.
Be close to his teacher, believe in his teaching, and be a teacher and a friend
I like to expand some extracurricular content with my classmates. For example, before "Qinyuanchun·Changsha", it introduces the first half of Mao Zedong's "prosperous and prosperous book business"; before "Recording a Speech of Mr. Liang Rengong", it introduces the story of Liang Qichao, Liang Sicheng, and Liang Congjie, all three generations of heroes; before "Red Cliff Ode", it introduces I learned about Su Shi’s broad-minded mind of Confucianism, Buddhism and Taoism, and when I got interested, I took everyone to take a few classes outdoors... On the one hand, I learned about people and the world, and paved the way for understanding the text. On the other hand, I wanted these stories that deeply affected me and educated me to enter the hearts of the students.
It happened to be the Mid-Autumn Festival, and I talked about poems about the moon. I bought moon cakes for each of my classmates that day. I noticed that a boy in the front row broke off half of the moon cake after receiving it and gave it to the girl at the back. I really envy them the beautiful and sweet time when they are still in high w88 casino. He chatted with me over the weekend and asked me how difficult it was to get into college. I said that it would not be difficult at all if I made progress together with my girlfriend and encouraged each other. From then on, we often chatted, sometimes about basketball, sometimes about study or life. Although I didn’t watch basketball, I still had to pretend to understand and chat with him. He may be a poor student in the eyes of other teachers who is naughty, has many bad habits, and doesn't study, but I know that he is kind and righteous, has ideas, but has difficulty in learning. He is a good student.
I had hot pot with my classmates in Gangcha, went to see the Shaliu River, and took a walk in the evening. Along the way, I learned about their elementary w88 casino, junior high w88 casino, and their families... Everyone is alive, the protagonist of their own life, and has their own story, so they all need the respect and care of the teacher. On the street of Gangcha, the street lights were dim and a few people were walking slowly in a row. At that moment, I really wanted to stay here and accompany them forever.
The harder you work, the sadder you become - accept and persevere
After the first semester, I wrote an application to the w88 casino, hoping to continue taking care of these children. But the result was not satisfactory and I was transferred out of my original class. The emotional loss is still fresh in my memory, and I suffered from insomnia and depression for several days. That time I understood a truth. Teachers have no right to choose students. As long as they are your students, you have to give 100% to them.
I was arranged as the head teacher of the model science class. There were 29 lovely Tibetan children in the class. Later I learned that some of the children in the class were students taught by Sun Zhenghao, a senior from the previous teaching group, in the junior high w88 casino. I had been applying to the w88 casino to be a class teacher before I came to Qinghai. When I actually did this, I was under a lot of pressure and often confused.
At the beginning, the students were very dull, the class atmosphere was quite depressing, the children’s attitudes towards learning were not correct, and there were some problems with their learning methods. Late self-study was very noisy, discussions were loud, copying of homework was very serious, they did not do their homework on duty, and there were many students who skipped classes...
The theme of the first class meeting is the art of time. I calculated an account with everyone, how long has passed since high w88 casino and how long is left. Let me share with you how other high w88 casino students arrange their time and help you plan which time can be used for studying. I am the kind of person who is very emotional and passionate when I get into the mood. This class meeting won some favor from the children.
Noisy self-study in the evening is my biggest headache. I have tried many methods but to no avail. One time I couldn't hold it back and made my classmates copy four poems 10 times, and then I went back to the dormitory in anger. I was very uncomfortable that night and felt sorry for my classmates. I was there calculating how many words everyone had to write and how much time it would take. I wondered if the children would write several pens at a time to save energy. I was worried that everyone would stay up late and lose energy the next day. The more I think about it, the more I regret it, why should I use such an extreme method? Later I discovered that I had completely overthought it... No one in the class copied. But from that day on, the evening self-study was very quiet. It is said that the vice-principal also brought other classes to visit our class.
One time when I was checking the dormitory, I asked the monitor why he didn't care about discipline. Another classmate said, "They all have opinions on you, let alone the monitor." I always thought that I had a good relationship with my classmates. Although I asked a lot from everyone, I thought they liked me. However, this sentence made me uncomfortable. The more I couldn’t figure it out, the more I thought about it, and the more I thought about it, the more I couldn’t figure it out. Reflect on your own problems and put yourself in their shoes. I learned that a few classmates felt that I was targeting them. But I have experienced the sensitivity of this age, and I am surprised and deeply wronged. The only way to resolve the misunderstanding is through communication. I talk to them heart-to-heart, ask them about their difficulties in study and life, listen to them first, and finally tell them that I can see their progress and that everyone has their own shining point. We talked a lot, and there were some happy changes. Maybe they are still like that in the eyes of others and even their parents, but I know they are developing in a good direction.
Forgot what it was, I posted a message on WeChat Moments, "The harder you work, the sadder it becomes." But looking back, you can only accept it and persist. I am happy when the students are happy, and I am not happy when the students are not happy. When I close my eyes, it is their smile, and when I open my eyes, it is their kindness. Their mood at w88 casino is my mood. During the holidays, they are happy, but I only miss them.
I can pick it up, but I can’t put it down—waving my hands makes me bear more weight
Our class won the first prize in the Haibei Prefecture Library Recitation Competition; our class won the second prize in the May Fourth Literary Competition. Seeing them shine on stage is like watching your own children grow up. However, at this time, there is only one month left to teach.
I hope that time can stop here. I hope that the teaching period is two or three years. I hope that they can pass the exam in Beijing and then they will not be teachers and students but brothers. I hope that they can persist in studying and make progress every day without me. I hope that I did not have it a year ago. When I come here, there will be no painful parting. I hope I can leave everything behind and stay here to send them to college. I hope I can hear news from them every week in the future and know that they have made progress again. I hope I will never see news about them again because forgetfulness is the antidote to affection...
On the evening of June 10, Hengheng said that the w88 casino leader came to see me and asked me to go to the classroom. I was nervous and worried when I was walking on the road. I was afraid that they would start arguing again, and I was afraid that someone would copy their homework again...
When I got close to the class, the little naughty boy in our class was looking around at the door, and he turned off the lights in the class. My heart suddenly darkened, and I was anxious about what I should do with more than half a month left.
Take a deep breath and be mentally prepared before entering the classroom. The moment I stepped into the classroom, I saw a faint fire light on the podium, and I heard the children singing "Happy Birthday to You..." for me.
Bai Yansong once said that the best years that people claim are actually the most painful, and they are only so happy when they recall them afterwards. It turns out that this is support teaching, it turns out that this is the head teacher, it turns out that this is love and being loved.
Just classmates, you know, I am just an ordinary person. I once tried every means to get it, but now I can't let it go no matter what.
When I say goodbye, I can burst into tears for a moment, but I can’t turn around and feel relieved.
Because of your waving hand, I feel heavier.
Children, I will always love you and bless you forever, but please forgive me for not being able to accompany you for eternity.
