I am more silent than my own shadow, passing through the chaos of greed

——Borges "Tranquil Contentment"

My day is filled with the silence of night

The day is like a busy show.

People apply makeup, laugh and cry, and all kinds of dramas appear one after another.

Occasionally, you will laugh like an actor.

But more often than not, you pour a glass of lonely wine alone and watch quietly.

The wine is bitter

Everything she saw and felt at this moment, her misfortune, w88 online casino betting, the filthy water, the dim light from the lantern blown by the wind, everything, even her despair, pushed her back to reality.

——"The Wine of w88 online casino betting"

Some people say that "The Wine of w88 online casino betting" by Jelena Nemirovsky is a book that is forgotten after reading it. However, this book is as fascinating to me as w88 online casino betting itself. The author uses the protagonist Elena in the book to describe her abnormal childhood: the eternal absence of maternal love, blind love, lack of friendship... All kinds of unhappiness made her fall into the quagmire of w88 online casino betting step by step. w88 online casino betting is like a glass of wine. When you first taste it, you cannot find its mellowness. However, as time goes by, people gradually become intoxicated with it.

A young scholar once asked Hemingway: "What is the best early training for a writer?" Hemingway replied: "An unhappy childhood."

Nemilovsky also had a gray childhood. Her mother was a declining aristocratic lady. She gave birth to her entirely to please her husband, and saw her birth as the beginning of the decline of her feminine charm, leaving her to tutors and nannies. She refused to let her daughter grow up and forced Nemirovsky to wear little girl's clothes.

The lack of maternal love makes Nemirovsky not believe in the morality people say. And this morality itself is not convincing enough. From childhood to adulthood, people always preach the sunny side of the world. However, human nature, as well as the entire world, are extremely diverse and complex. The world is filled with more pain than happiness, and this pain also enriches this empty world.

Of course, no one wants to suffer. Looking through the memories, those feelings of humiliation, betrayal, loss, and abandonment are rolling like waves. Still rememberWThe childhood narrated to me - the days when pain and tears were written down in the diary. Her parents' divorce, family snobbery, and lack of family affection forced her to become independent early at a young age. She has never loved easily, and is extremely harsh on any emotion because she has been abandoned; she has never despised any emotion, and she cherishes it because she has been missing. I love such a resolute and forthright woman who never denies the noise of the world, but never loses hope in life. Her strength, persistence and aggressiveness are like a mirror, reflecting my expectations and trust in the world. Nemirovsky's life was even more dramatic and tragic: her banker father made her realize the dirtiness of money; her romantic mother made her completely suspicious of maternal love; the October Revolution made her homeless and afraid of going out, so she could only hide in a cold attic and read greedily.

Youth in wine

Youth is a glass of fine wine, but it is usually packed in a crudely made cup.

——"Prey"

1942Year.

Although Nemirovsky’s writing style is still gloomy, she already has a beloved husband and two lovely daughters. God allowed her to usher in happiness in life after suffering a painful childhood. However, happiness can never last forever. July,39Year-old Nemirovsky was arrested by the French police on the grounds of being a "stateless Jew".

Before being taken away, she said to her two daughters: "I want to go on a long trip."

A month later, she died of typhoid in Auschwitz.

I have been thinking, if my life is like this, will I feel happy? Even if you endure many hardships, you will eventually achieve something and have someone you love; even if your life is short, you will experience all the ups and downs, and your life will be complicated.

Xi Murong said that youth is a hasty book. But obviously we turned the page too quickly, but instead we said it was too hasty. Human life can continue to prosper, it is we who age ourselves. Nemilovsky suffered many hardships, but he remained in his prime. Underneath a pair of eyes that see through the world is a full and young heart. Her whole life exuded the scent of youth, holding on to hope because she was too desperate.

It’s just that youth is often contained in a crudely made cup. That cup was engraved with traces of suffering. Only a true brave man has the ability to raise a cup and sip the great pride.

So, if my life is like this, then I should feel honored. Or, this life is not what we can expect. Maybe I could laugh mediocrely for the rest of my life, only to find out in the end that everything was just a ridiculous and funny dream. However, even if it is not thrilling, I am still looking forward to something extraordinary in this life, although I am clearly aware that such a road must be bumpy.

Although this cup containing youth is so crudely made, we don’t mind. This is our youth.

Originally lonely

I am lonely, but my w88 online casino betting is bitter and intoxicating.

——"The Wine of w88 online casino betting"

Nemirovsky’s childhood was cold and dull. Her mother never loved her, and her father loved her but was often not around her. Young Nemirovsky learned how to survive the lack of family affection. She has developed the habit of w88 online casino betting since she was a child, which gave her sharp eyes and sarcastic writing style.

However, when she finally built her own harmonious family after going through all the hardships, I thought she was also lonely. Because w88 online casino betting is the state of human life. When people are born, they are destined to be lonely. Independent ideological personalities separate them from each other. Nemirovsky began formal writing at the age of eighteen and continued until his death. Her passion for writing is an unquenchable fire. From this perspective, she is always independent, which makes her inner more peaceful and lonely.

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Everyone is lonely. It’s just that we are afraid to understand this reality. We look for all kinds of reasons to laugh and gather in groups to stay away from w88 online casino betting. When we find that we are no longer alone, life is moving in the direction of emptiness. In fact, w88 online casino betting is not terrible. What is terrible is that we do not have the courage to face w88 online casino betting. It does not affect the love between people, but will make this love stronger and more precious. This reminds me of Jane Eyre, that pale, thin and stubborn woman. Her lonely temperament makes her appear mysterious and aloof, and also makes her never look back once she falls in love. So when Rochester had nothing, she could still accompany him calmly. This dignity cannot be doubted, this love cannot be desecrated, and this w88 online casino betting cannot be abandoned.

This lonely glass of wine is filled with a touch of sweetness and a touch of bitterness. Drinking w88 online casino betting, you walked quietly through the complexity of that life.

My night is sunny

You are a devout believer, praying silently in the moonlight.

You are a passionate poet, singing softly in the dark.

Your night soaks into your soul, invades your life, and feeds on your w88 online casino betting.

It's everywhere and you can't escape.

However, the night was so bright that it was irresistible.

You are laughing, crying, sad and bright.

This is your life, cold and warm, bitter and sweet.

The last wine

After Nemilovsky died in the Auschwitz concentration camp, her two daughters brought Nemilovsky’s manuscripts to their rented mother’s house. The ruthless mother refused to help and said coldly: “You can go live in an orphanage.”

However, when Nemirovsky’s mother102When she died in a mansion at the age of 18, people found only two things in her safe: Nemirovsky's famous work "David Geddel" and "Isabel" based on her mother.

After that, Nemirovsky’s talent quickly left people’s sight like the smoke of war. Duras's style is remembered, but Nemilovsky's w88 online casino betting is unjustly forgotten in an inconspicuous corner of the bookshelf.

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Nemirovsky’s daughter Denis said, “My mother finally got justice.”

On a hot summer day, I read Nemilovsky for the first time. Her melancholy and desperate writing style was like a stone thrown into the narrow center of my life, causing ripples.