"Is Su Yan here?" There was a voice on the other end of the phone that I was not very familiar with.

There is also a slightly suppressed tension, which cannot be hidden from my ears.

"Oh, she's not here." I said casually.

"So when will she come back?"

"Sorry, I don't know."

"Really..." He pondered for a moment, "I am downstairs in the dormitory, can I wait for her?"

"Maybe," I resisted the urge to laugh, "you can try it."

"Excuse me, goodbye."

After hanging up the phone, his last politeness was a bit beyond my expectation. But it didn't matter. I soon started laughing and couldn't stop laughing.

“Who are you looking for?” Qiao Ya asked. There was a facial mask on her face, which looked very scary at first glance.

"Look for Su Yan."

"Oh? What did you say?"

"Said to wait for her downstairs in the dormitory."

"It's very affectionate." She paused, and when I didn't respond, she suddenly raised her voice, "Then why don't you go?"

"Why should I go? I told him that Su Yan didn't come back, so he can just wait."

"Su Yan, sooner or later you will be filled with resentment."

"They are willing to do so, how can they be willing to blame me?"

I won’t feel guilty. You can’t even hear my voice. You just take a few glances and decide you like it. Such people rely only on fleeting impulses and will soon have their next target.

What’s more, I don’t know his name, his appearance, his identity, and I don’t even know where he glanced at me. How can we act rashly when the enemy is hidden and we are clear?

It is very hard to provoke Su Yan casually.

Qiao Ya took off her mask and continued to take care of her face in front of the mirror, while asking me: "Su Yan, how do you prepare dinner?"

I said, "I want a lot of money."

Joya frowned, "Did you hear what I said clearly?"

"I want to eat Japanese cuisine, American grilled chicken, French dinner or an authentic Manchu-Han banquet..." I said as I jumped in front of Gioia, took away her mirror, and looked at her with affection or desire, "Gioia, I want a lot of money."

Gioia pressed my shoulders with both hands, pushed me to a safe distance, then took the mirror and continued the interrupted work. She had long been accustomed to my sudden strange words and deeds, and said with a normal expression, "Come to dinner with me, and I'll let you meet the person I made an appointment with."

“Gioia?” I was a little surprised, “Then where are we going to eat?”

“Of course it’s somewhere we go every day.”
"No, it's still the canteen..."

Gioia threw my coat over, and as soon as I put it on, a light flashed through my heart, and I felt that something bad was about to happen.

"What's wrong?" She turned around and saw me looking pitiful.

"Qiao Ya... someone called just now and said he was waiting for Su Yan downstairs in the dormitory..."

Qiao Ya laughed loudly, she gasped and said: "Su Yan, have you ever heard of the retribution of this world?"

I wanted to rush over and grab her neck.

Joya and I have been sleeping together for nearly two years. I still remember the first time we met. I stretched out my hand and said to her, "Hello, my name is Su Yan." Our eyes met and we instantly looked into each other's hearts.

Joya, I was amazed at how quickly she adapted to me. Growing up, my sister always said, "Su Yan, what kind of friend do you want?"

I replied, "Sister, why did you say this? I have a cheerful personality, a wide range of hobbies, and am willing to do charity. What criticism do you have of my interpersonal relationships?"

She shook her head helplessly, "But Su Yan, you are not satisfied. No one can influence you."

“I am greedy,” I laughed. “Sister, tell me, how should I be affected?”

From the moment I realized it, my sister Su Yun was different from me. She is a well-behaved girl, gentle and tolerant, quiet and polite, obedient to her parents and loving her sister. She is a daughter that her parents are proud of. The way she lives a simple and serious life is something I have always looked at. And I, in my mother’s words, “You kid…”

She always sighs, but there is always no follow-up. In the end, it’s unclear what kind of child I was.

I just know that in the eyes of my mother who said helplessly like that, my sister and I are really different.

When I was young, I kept my hair very long, but I didn’t do it in a beautiful braid, I just tied it loosely. I like to keep running along the road that leads to nowhere, and keep running, with my sister following behind me and not daring to stop. I am not as diligent as my sister. I always spend time reading books recording various strange things and doing things that are not conducive to learning. I don’t want my parents to worry about me. When my mother is choosing clothes for my sister to try on, I will say to her, “Mom, I want to buy this, I like it.” Then I will take her wallet to pay.

I am a really self-aware kid.

So my sister is right, I am not affected, but I never know that I feel dissatisfied.

No matter how close a friend is, they have never reached the softest place in my heart. They are all so kind and warm, but only one of them is enough to be kind to me.

Yes, just my sister is enough. She is perfect enough and does not need anyone to supplement her.

Including me, I don’t need to be the same as her.

This happened a long time ago. Later, I met Joya.

I stretched out my hand and said to her, "Hello, my name is Su Yan." Our eyes met, and in her eyes, I saw my little self.

We spent two years in the university, getting along with each other, getting to know a lot of people, taking classes we each liked, and having different societies and student unions. No matter how far we have gone in different directions, and we have not given any very important feelings, we have never been more alienated than at the beginning.

This kind of appearance of neither knowing nor being intimate in the eyes of others is actually the relationship and distance that the other party needs.

LivelyPARTYHappy travel, tacit understanding of work, and hard work in exams. After everything is over, only this person will still stay with you.

I still haven’t been affected by anyone, but this is just right.