To Lanyan: So w88 mobile are not here
Author Zhu Ziyan (Level 10 w88 casino of Information)
I think of w88 mobile systematically and formally. Thinking of the past that was bright and tiny, like crystals scattered on the ground. In fact, I really don’t know if w88 mobile will complain that I drag w88 mobile into the topic of the text. This winter is not too cold.
Actually, I can never understand why an article must have a central idea. Even if it describes one thing and has a central character, it does not need to be unique. So why does our so-called idea have to be unique.
w88 mobile don’t like your writing to be dyed utilitarian or have a purpose from the beginning, but I wrote that w88 mobile did have a very clear purpose. w88 mobile don't mind.
Start writing now.
If I have to find a reason why winter is not cold, then it can only be w88 mobile. This is a mixture of happiness and sadness. It not only proves your importance to me, but also cruelly proves my loneliness. There is no one to keep me company, absolutely nothing.
On the day of the Beginning of Winter, I went to Nanluogu Lane. The children said that the double skin milk there was particularly delicious. In fact, I don’t like that thing, and I don’t like the cheese in Beijing. It’s different from the cheese in the old place. I still like the yogurt in the old place. The real freshness makes people feel that if w88 mobile don’t drink it in time, it will wrinkle and fade like a person’s face, from white to yellow. But when the child said that he wanted me to go, there was a very clear expectation in his tone, and I didn't want to live up to it.
In Nanluogu Lane, I saw many backpackers, as if walking was their religion. Compared with a backpacker who hurries across the street with a bite of bread or pie, I think I will never be able to appreciate a cute girl asking her boyfriend to buy cheese for her on the street, because those Sherpas who climbed Mount Everest without oxygen and monks crawling on the pilgrimage road, and An eternal gesture stands in my memory. w88 mobile know, Tibet is not clean at all, so messy, so dirty and backward, but stepping on it is like stepping on a way back. It is inner cleansing. w88 mobile can feel it in the beautiful sunshine the moment w88 mobile get off the bus.
I have always tried to keep a clean heart. I felt this way when I saw w88 mobile, and I think every teenager has such a time. On the one hand, he wants to grow and mature, and on the other hand, he wants to protect his clean heart, but it is gradually stripped away by the hands of the world, and he unconsciously becomes the murderer of innocence. At this point, w88 mobile are the reason why I feel that I cannot be cold. I have indeed seen the softness in many texts. A certain part of the softness has never been discarded and can easily shed tears of emotion. I have personally witnessed this several times.
While walking and visiting many small shops, I discovered that I was greedy and wanted to keep all the beautiful little things in my pocket: a beautiful Chinese knot, a pair of handmade embroidered shoes, a unique hand-painted postcard... Then thinking back, where are those people? The people I once wanted to hold in my hands, I no longer have.
w88 mobile wrote in your diary about the sound of rain at night in Jiujiang.
I can’t hear your night rain. If one person's sky is tilted, how can another person see it? There is always a gap between people, even between mother and child. From the moment the umbilical cord is cut, each person has been independently proved that people often cannot communicate. Don't describe human nature as ruthless, it's just instinct. Our coolness all comes from our self-protection and need. There is the concept of economic man in economics. What I find particularly interesting is that the prerequisite for describing this word is hypothesis. People can never admit their own selfishness and strong desire to maximize self-interest in a positive way, just like unconsciously, we will not have the courage to admit our own shortcomings. Of course I am the same, I never thought I was going to be spared. This is not a huge shame, it is just a reality that we cannot accept. So I am not eager to understand your thoughts. We never force conversations. This makes me feel comfortable. I can express my emotions and narrate a funny or sad incident, but I never force the other party to come up with opinions and ideas. Even silence feels good.
I may never be able to accept the humidity in the south. My heart firmly belongs to the north. On nights in high w88 casino, and in seasons like this, there would only be falling snow. It snows there all the time in the spring, all the time.
The tranquility is as it is now, and there will be no sound.
Sometimes I imagine the rain in Jiujiang, how it has watered w88 mobile in the past years, how those water droplets are intimately and silently embedded in your bones, and how it misses w88 mobile when w88 mobile leave it during your interspersed vacation travels.
Living away from home is a concept and has nothing to do with distance. w88 mobile are close and I am far. The distance in physical space is printed on a map at the same scale, and the unit of difference is onlycminstead ofkm. Leaving home is just a cause of emotional sadness for us. I would jokingly think, in fact, w88 mobile are not lonely because w88 mobile are with Tang Xianzu, but I am not either. I have Lao She who threw himself into the lake and stayed forever2010's Shi Tiesheng. We will use those celebrities to claim that they are the capital of companionship, but we are always isolated individuals. Anne's description is the best proof that islands across the sea are not enough and cannot have the possibility of being close to each other.
When talking about the sadness of leaving home, I will think of it a lot, but I don’t define this sadness as homesickness, because we know the meaning of homesickness better. I always thought that w88 mobile liked the city of Shanghai because w88 mobile loved Wong Kar-Wai and Zhang Ailing. Hong Kong is actually only a movie away from Shanghai, so close. When Huang Xiaohu sang that line "Don’t want to have too many emotions\A glass of red wine with a movie\On weekend nights\Turn off the phone\Comfortable on the sofa”,I will miss w88 mobile watching Wong Kar-wai alone late at night, preferably "In the Mood for Love". Maggie Cheung can no longer wear the cheongsam so beautifully, Tony Leung Chiu-wai is truly young and old. I once dreamed about a glass radio station. I dreamed that the surroundings were transparent but airtight, and I felt that glass was magical. It could block the cold but not the skylight. Isn’t it like Zhang Ailing’s mother Huang Yifan, who is basically the founder of old ChinaOld Shanghai was dim but not without light. The drunkenness of life and dreams was entangled with each other, and the loneliness was thrown out. But w88 mobile know, nostalgia is part of this. Perhaps no one understands the meaning of nostalgia better than the mainlanders who moved to Taiwan in the 1940s and 1950s. It is not a distant departure from the country, but a melancholy that is elusive and out of reach. Wong Kar-Wai is in Hong Kong, and his nostalgia is based on time rather than space. He didn’t have to live in Taiwan and Shanghai at that time. He could see all this in Hong Kong. I really can’t call him an understanding of him, but I can still see his overflowing nostalgia in Maggie Cheung’s cheongsam, and the lingering sounds and lights, as familiar as his own childhood. This may be the reason why w88 mobile watch Wong Kar-Wai, because like me, w88 mobile also love nostalgia. Now that I read Yu Guangzhong again, I can really shed tears. It has nothing to do with experience, but the direct feeling after hearing the sentence "Nostalgia is a small ticket." We have all used ourselves to prove that sentence. Some things are based on emotion rather than experience. True sensibility has nothing to do with youth or oldness.
I don’t know if w88 mobile will define writing for yourself in the end. w88 mobile never wanted to be a writer from the beginning, but I am different. But now I have long abandoned it, this shallow dream, at the age of eighteen. w88 mobile were indeed able to clearly explain the definition of dreams to me and the meaning of travel. w88 mobile found some excellent words for my chaotic and vague life. One night I dreamed that w88 mobile and the children passed me by but never looked back and said goodbye. I really started crying in the morning and then sent w88 mobile a text message. I don’t know if I would feel hypocritical when I say this now, but at that time, before dawn, I felt the bone-chilling cold of winter. w88 mobile are so similar to me, yet so different. I will be here with w88 mobile, showing my truest thoughts, whether it is shame or cowardice, facing w88 mobile as I face myself. w88 mobile don’t need to confess everything, but w88 mobile don’t need to hide it. But w88 mobile and I are still different, and I am obsessed with and loving this difference.
The similarity between w88 mobile and me may ultimately be related to the region. w88 mobile and your favorite Wong Kar-wai both belong to the south where warmth can protect w88 mobile. Maybe this is the reason why w88 mobile have kept that gentle heart. Only the warm mountains and soft water in the south can produce smooth and shiny pearls and jade. I have always acknowledged this. I have always admitted that the North is deficient in cultivating a person's inner emotions. The coldness of the North has become a kind of cruelty and indifference that is completely opposite to the South. For example, Jiangnan and the desert have become the most striking contrast in martial arts. w88 mobile will be sad. It's sadness, I have to use this word to describe that kind of melancholy, which is not sharp but an uninterrupted turbulence like running water. I really don’t need to write about myself here for comparison. But it's easy to guess. Do w88 mobile know the style of Beijing? I love the wind of this city, the age of this city, and the calm seriousness and remoteness of this city. In this case, it will be obvious why w88 mobile love Shanghai. The person who taught me Chinese was a girl from Jiangnan. That kind of unique gentleness is in the bones. Even living in the north will not have any impact on her core. I like this kind of person very much, so I am very willing to listen to her lectures, especially those things that have nothing to do with the class.
Love Chinese, love a person who speaks Chinese, because what she speaks is never Chinese, but the past of this ancient culture. English will never be of this level. Their culture is a highway, and they move forward without caring about the surrounding scenery. We are wandering on the field roads. I do not exclude those other cultures, but they are extremely I hate English, I hate it deeply. This is the big difference between w88 mobile and me. If w88 mobile are open-minded and broad-minded, then I am still closed-minded and defensive, like a feudal society that refuses to accept everything from the outside. I can never accept that a Chinese who cannot speak English well will be laughed at, while a foreigner who can speak a few simple Chinese will be praised by everyone. I will not accept a foreigner saying that he loves China. That is a betrayal of himself. w88 mobile can like it, w88 mobile can be obsessed with it, China is worth it, but w88 mobile can never love it. Love is your homeland. For a person, love is always behind w88 mobile, not in front of w88 mobile.
I want to describe this feeling with the style of writing history under dim light, but as I write, it feels like I am quarreling. I don’t know if someone like that will come out again and point at my words and say that I actually use something as profound and sacred as Chinese culture and history to describe my own little emotions, but I am just so worthless and ignorant of the high ground. In addition to stating facts, culture and history are also used to express emotions. What do we use it for. Offering it, and then watching it disappear bit by bit.
Your significance to me is also reflected in the fact that in the few times when I was on the verge of collapse (I want to express that I am actually very strong, so there are very few), w88 mobile would indeed not comfort me. w88 mobile would only calmly tell me that if w88 mobile are not brave, no one will be strong for w88 mobile. And when I pretend to be indifferent and don't care, w88 mobile prove to me that childishness is stubbornness and luck. I complain to w88 mobile that I miss so-and-so, but w88 mobile will only tell me that if w88 mobile miss him, just tell him. It’s that simple. It wasn’t until I left many people that I realized what a luxury it is to be able to express my thoughts. I was on the streets of Taiyuan, and the girl who was described by children as having a voice like bean paste freshly baked in March gently held my hand. I sent w88 mobile a text message walking behind me, but w88 mobile only replied to me. Don't tell me, tell yourself. The content of my text message is probably, I am very warm and touched.
If I were to find a so-called reason why the winter in Beijing is not cold, then it can only be that I often receive your text messages on the way to the classroom. Sometimes I even think of the children and look up at the blue sky that looks like the old land, so I don’t feel so lonely.
Because of this strange subject, I can only bring w88 mobile in to save the situation. I am used to doing this, looking for w88 mobile when I am in trouble and bottleneck. I reluctantly wrote w88 mobile in, and then stopped writing very dissatisfied. What I want to say is far more than this, w88 mobile know. In fact, I can't accept this sentence. This winter is not too cold. I don't know if not being too cold can really mean that I feel warm inside. Would a person wear short-sleeves to go out in winter because of the warmth in his heart? As for the winter in his heart, it is much easier. Some people's hearts do not change seasons. Everyone's winter will be cold. For example, if w88 mobile have a southern heart, it will definitely not snow in winter, and I, who have a northern heart, will never hear the sound of rain at night in winter.
The world is silent, but what is noisy is the seasonal change in the heart.
If there must be a reason why winter is not cold, then it is because we are not in a winter.
Sometimes I wonder about the distance, and then I remember that the unreachable distance between w88 mobile, the south and the north is so real and sad.
So w88 mobile are not here.
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